1. |
Fell In Love Without You
02:31
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Last night I fell in love without you. I waved goodbye to that heart of mine beating solo on your lawn
Every aching wound will cauterize and bruise. In memory of what we used to call, “in love.”
& only time will tell if violins will swell. In memory of what we used to call, “in love.” We used to call it: “love.”
Last night I fell in love without you. The coup de grace that set me off would have made for decent fiction
Every aching wound will cauterize and bruise. In memory of what we used to call, “in love.”
& only time will tell if violins will swell. In memory of what we used to call, “in love.”
We used to call it:
Last night I fell in love without you. The stars at night aren’t as big & bright as you make
Them out to be
& every aching wound will cauterize and bruise
In memory of what we used to call, “in love.” & Only time will tell if violins will swell
In memory of what we used to call, “in love.” In memory of when we used to call it: “love.”
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2. |
This Is For Real
03:10
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I’ve got emotion. Dripping out my pours & I thought I would let you know
You are the nightlight. Ripping through my wicked world
How you make it sparkle & glow
Before I lose control. There’s just one thing you should know
This is for real. This time I mean it. I’m coming clean. Please don’t let go
I said from the start. That you could take it or leave it.
I’d prefer that you keep it. Don’t let go. Don’t let go. Don’t let go
I had some nightmares. Clawing at my skin & bones. I nearly did explode
You smoked the demons. Gave me back my feelings. Now I am good to go
Before my face hits the floor. There’s just one thing you should know
This is for real. This time I mean it. I’m coming clean. Please don’t let go
I said from the start. That you could take it or leave it
I’d prefer that you keep it. Don’t let go
This is the best thing that i’ve ever had for real
This is the best thing that i’ve ever had for real
For a physical challenge. I’m notoriously bored. Intravenous delivery
Electrolytes & more. Every time it’s the same routine. Out with the bad
In with the clean. Before I lose all motor skills
There’s one thing you should know
This is for real. This time I mean it. I’m coming clean. Please don’t let go
I said from the start. That you could take it or leave it
I’d prefer that you keep it. Don’t let go
This is the best thing that i’ve ever had for real
This is the best thing that i’ve ever had for real
This is the best thing that i’ve ever had for real
This is the best thing that i’ve ever had for real
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3. |
It Had To Be You
03:47
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I get lost, messed up & bored when i’m alone too long. I can’t sleep, function or eat when i’m not with someone
Late last fall she ended it all & moved to who knows where?
Just like that she vanished & packed & never even called
Do you feel a certain sense of synergy between yourself and me?
A kind of macabre & somber wondertwin type of harmony?
What if it was you? You that I needed all along? I felt like a fool
Kicking & screaming yet pretending we were wrong
Let’s get wrecked on pop-tarts & sex & see the taj mahal
Let’s save birds from prince william sound & skateboard through the mall
Let’s fight crime with mangos & limes & join the pga
Let’s win big with every spin, but hurry… I can’t wait
Do you spend a fortune on those late night pre-paid television scams?
In search of the perfect blender, steak knife and non-stick frying pan?
What if it was you? You that I needed all along? I felt like a fool
Thinking we were completely wrong
It seemed like a dream. One beautiful scream. That echoed forever
& made us not afraid to feel a thing & after it ends. We’ll try to be friends
They say that what doesn’t kill us makes us who we are
All this time & everything’s changed but I still feel the same
All good things eventually end & get washed down the drain
What a disaster it would be if you discovered that I cared
A little too much for friends but not enough to share
What if it was you? You that I needed all along? I felt like a fool
Now that i’m sure that I was wrong
It had to be you. It had to be you. It had to be you
I knew it was you
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4. |
Last Night
03:17
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I’m still frustrated from last night. Things happened in half time. I’m sick of the bends
My panic research was no help. I sink into myself. Afraid of the fall that never ends
I wait but i’m too tired to play pretend. I’ll suffocate until the end
No time for half-hearted goodbyes. I turn on the spotlight & flee from the scene
Cheap flights from paris to bangkok. I thought it was non-stop. Can’t sleep on the klm again
I haunt the halls of medicine at night. Choking back the urge to fight
Her cat was clawing the floorboards. Just outside of our door. The panic begins
I searched the whole damn apartment. From ceiling to carpet
No sign of the things she used to own. As autumn turns it’s back on me again
I climb the walls for oxygen
My body aches. It heaves, it shakes. All somersaults through so-called art
& I still don’t know exactly who I am. I never will. Amen
She whispers something in my ear. The message is unclear. She motions outside
I trail her closely from behind. She tries hard not to cry
She shakes underneath the pouring rain
“i can’t compete with all your damn ideas. This isn’t working out for you or me.
The truth is i’m too tired to play pretend. This is goodbye, this is the end.”
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5. |
Calling All Cops
03:24
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Calling all cops & autobots I hope that you're still there
Saving victims from the wreckage of our wild affairs, such wild affairs
Copy all cats & acrobats I know you don't play fair
Slinging sickness through the atmosphere without a care, without a care
Drowning all dolls in concert halls the curtain hits the cast
They parade like perfect ponies but it never lasts, it never lasts
Sever all ties to satellites that broadcast worthless words
You're extrapolating nonsense & it really hurts, it really hurts
When I'm awake I make the same mistakes they make
When I'm awake I can't escape
When I'm awake I make the same mistakes they make
& everything just falls apart
Calling all cops & autobots I hope that you're still there
Saving victims from the wreckage of our wild affairs, such wild affairs
Suffer all teens on dramamine the coast is not yet clear
Every continent has chaos & we need you here, we need you here
When I'm awake I make the same mistakes they make
When I'm awake I can't escape
When I'm awake I make the same mistakes they make
& everything just falls apart
Calling all cops & autobots
& everything just falls apart
Calling all cops & cosmonauts
& everything just falls apart
Calling all cops & autobots
& everything just falls apart
& everything just falls apart
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6. |
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Why can’t you finish what you’ve started? Why can’t you try and understand? It doesn’t make a bit
Of difference
If you start what you can’t finish. Every story needs an ending after all
I think i’ve known it for a long time. Suffice to say it’s been a while. You’re too afraid to
Face the outcome:
Quite likely you’re a failure
It’s a shitty thing to say, but hey man, the clock is ticking
I thought of all the things i’d like to say. Cramped up & couldn’t write a word all day
I just waited for my world to fall apart. That’s why i’ll never finish anything I start
What fuels the magic in the meantime? I know it’s hard without a vice
You need to find a new solution. Adaptation or retribution
If you truly do believe in something, somehow it all works out
I thought of all the things i’d like to say
Cramped up & couldn’t write a word all day
I just waited for my world to fall apart
That’s why i’ll never finish anything I start
I’m completely bored. With every single word. Nothing ever works
& this juvenile search is systematically revealing to me
That I need a new approach
I thought of all the things i’d like to say
Cramped up & couldn’t write a word all day
I just waited for my world to fall apart
That’s why i’ll never finish anything i…
…i’m so sick of all the things I try to say
Cramped up & couldn’t write a word all day
I just waited for my world to fall apart
That’s why i’ll never finish anything i…
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7. |
The Conversation
02:50
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You remember how we met? Silhouetted by the lights?
You were drunk & tried to take a mental picture with your hands
I was thinking about that & a bunch of other things. Stop looking at the floor
I need to pour out this expansive dose of words
I can’t explain. I need to be alone
I know the timing isn’t great. These things you just can’t plan
I just need a little time so I can find myself again
‘cause I get buried underneath all the things they think you are
& i’m too tired to pretend it doesn’t hurt to be left out
I had a pocketful of dreams but I gave them all to you
Now I think I want ‘em back. So can you tell me if i’m crazy or confused?
Don’t ever change. The way you are. I’ve never loved anyone more
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8. |
Broken Heart
03:01
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I’ll start this broken heart. I’ll fix it up so it will work again. Better than before
Then i’ll star in a mystery. A tragic tale of all that’s yet to come
With fingers crossed there will be love
But I get carried away. With every day & every fantasy. The deeper the wound
The harder I swoon & wish that that was me. With so much to say
But no words to convey. The loneliness building with each passing day
But i’m getting used to it. You have to get used to it
I’ll devise the best disguise. A brand new look & take them by surprise
They’ll never guess what’s not inside
I’ll express myself with ease. With confidence & character complete
With fingers crossed they’ll talk to me
But I get carried away. With every page in every magazine
The cheaper the thrill. The deeper I fill my head with blasphemy
With so much to say but no words to convey
The loneliness building with each passing day
But i’m getting used to it. You have to get used to it. So get used to it
I’ll destroy this useless heart. I’ll fuck it up so it’ll never beat again
Not just for me but for anyone
But I get carried away. With every phrase
& made up malady. The longer I hide . Behind these lies
The more I disintegrate. With so much to say
But no words to convey. The loneliness building with each passing day
You never get used to it
You just have to live with it
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9. |
Hello Helicopter
04:23
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Hello helicopter are you here to stay? Bodies, rest & motion fighting night & day
Well, it’s kill or be killed & one day we’ll get the best of them
Hello helicopter will you be my friend? Will you take me away?
Hello helicopter have you heard the news? No one gives a shit about the things they do
We all waste & consume, destroy & ruin everything we touch
It’s easy not to think when you’re not told that much
I’m not saying anything you haven’t heard before
I’m just trying to understand the way we are
Hello helicopter are you lost out there? Swimming through the garbage dump that fills the air
In several years no one will care, they’ll be rich & dead. So let somebody else devise a cure for it
I’m not saying anything you haven’t heard before
I’m just trying to understand the way we are
Nobody seems to care
Nobody ever learns
Hello helicopter are you here to stay? Bodies, rest & motion fighting night & day
Well, it’s kill or be killed & one day we’ll get the best of them
Hello helicopter are you listening?
Nobody seems to care
Nobody ever learns
Are we ever gonna get it right? Are we ever gonna start making sense
& stop pretending that we care? Are we ever gonna get it right?
Are we ever gonna start making sense & stop pretending that we care?
Are we ever gonna get it right? Are we ever gonna start making sense
& stop pretending?
Hello helicopter are you here to stay?
Bodies, rest & motion fighting night & day
Well, it’s kill or be killed & one day we’ll get the best of them
Hello helicopter are you listening?
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10. |
Where I Belong
03:23
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Hello there, how you doin’?
I’ve got all these thoughts just floating through my brain
They bump & they collide & cause a flurry of confusion & it’s getting on my nerves
I try to hold myself together, fighting off this mental weather when I can (sometimes I do)
But this shitstorm’s never ending & the atmospheric pressure’s calling for rain
This is what i’ve got going on
This is where I belong tonight
It’s chaos in the courthouse & the left side’s all upset because the right side
Wants a summer home & knows we can’t afford it
I try to meditate between this constant tug-o-war machine but wind up in a never
Ending game of telephone
There’s so much going on & I just need 7 minutes to calm myself back down
Now I forgot where I was
Was it me we were talking about?
This is what i’ve feared from the start
I keep falling apart
What’s goin’ on? Is this where I belong tonight?
What’s goin’ on? Is this where I belong tonight?
I can’t stand the thought of losing sentences & every island of words
I can’t stand the thought of losing everything I ever thought that I knew
This is where I run out of words. That describe how i’m so damn hurt
This is where I fumble & fold & take what i’m told
What’s goin’ on? Is this where I belong tonight?
What’s goin’ on? Is this where I belong tonight?
What’s goin’ on? Is this where I belong tonight?
What’s goin’ on? Is this where I belong tonight?
I can’t stand the thought of losing sentences & every island of words
I can’t stand the thought of losing everything I ever thought that I knew
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11. |
Point Of Extinction
02:39
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Are you listening javelina? Every corner of the coast is still clear
All dressed up with some medicine for luck. How I hope that you’re still here when I return
Burning bridges is a form of suicide. I saw the fires as the ghost of my life
Passed me by & there is nowhere you can hide. From the lessons or the lies that bind them
I’m so tired. I’ve had enough
If there’s one thing i’ve learned, you’ll always get burned
But you’ll never give it up
Can we count on our conversations. To restore us like energon cubes?
Made one wish for a permanent kiss
That would echo through these bones like arsenic
I can figure out the point of anything. Just not as quick as I can mess up my life
With all my dreams hooked to hospital machines
I think, “let’s try redefining beautiful.”
I’m so tired. I’ve had enough
If there’s one thing i’ve learned, you’ll always get burned
But you’ll never give it up
This is the best that it will get. Yeah, yeah, yeah, give it up, give it up!
This is the best that it will get. Yeah, yeah, give it up!
I can figure out the point of anything
I can figure out the point of anything
I can figure out the point of anything
I can figure out the point of anything
I can figure out the point of anything
I can figure out the point of it!
I’m so tired. I’ve had enough
If there’s one thing i’ve learned, you’ll always get burned
But you’ll never give it up
I’m so tired. I’ve had enough
If there’s one thing i’ve learned, you’ll always get burned
But you’ll never give it up
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12. |
Antonia
03:16
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She makes a lot of abstract art
She haggles for the cheapest price
She never orders take-out food before 10 o’clock at night
She’s really into snowmobiles
She owns a lot of nice flashlights
She cares for all the stupid cats that never found their way home
She shaves her legs with ginsu knives
She quotes a lot of annie hall
She misplaced her virginity back in 1995
She’s what’s keeping me alive
She’s the pizza of my eye
Without her near me I would not survive
It gets cold when she’s not around
I float until I sink & i’m swallowed up
It’s so cold when she’s not around
I wait for her to come home & tell me i’ll be fine
She’s always eating captain crunch
She sings a lot of ben folds five
She’s scared to death of cobra snakes just like indiana jones
She tells the dumbest knock-knock jokes
She drinks a lot of chardonnay
She hates the way I comb my hair
But she married me last june
She was the bride I was the groom
I cried a lot and then we spooned
Without her in my life I would be doomed
It gets cold when she’s not around
I float until I sink & i’m swallowed up
It’s so cold when she’s not around
I wait for her to come home & tell me i’ll be fine
Tell me i’ll be fine
She loves the smell of christmas trees
She sneezes when she sees bright lights
She fainted on the kitchen floor
When her father passed away
Our baby girl is due this may
& when the little lady grows up
I hope that she will be just like her mother
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13. |
Even If It Kills Me
03:51
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I’ve got a lot of things to do tonight
I’m so sick of making lists of things i’ll never finish
I’ve lived here for the last twelve years
Since early 1995 all my shit has been in boxes
But if I had a little more time to kill
I’d settle every little stupid thing
Yeah, you’d think that I would
But i’m too tired to go to sleep tonight
& i’m too weak to follow dreams tonight
For the first time in a long time I can say that I want to try
To get better & overcome each moment
In my own way
I wonder if i’ll ever lose my mind
I tried hard for a while but then I kind of gave up
Winter is a killer when the sun goes down
I’m really not as stubborn as I seem
Said the knuckle to the concrete
But i’m too tired to go to sleep tonight
& i’m too weak to follow dreams tonight
For the first time in a long time I can say that I want to try
To get better & overcome each moment
In my own way
I’m not saying that i’ve given up
I’m just trying not to think as much as I used to
‘cause never is a lonely little messed up word
Maybe i’ll get it right someday
For the first time in a long time I can say that I want to try
I feel helpless for the most part but i’m learning to open my eyes
& the sad truth of the matter is i’ll never get over it but i’m gonna try
To get better & overcome each moment
In my own way
I so want to get back on track
& i’ll do whatever it takes
Even if it kills me
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14. |
Not Asking You To Leave
03:57
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I'm not asking you to leave
I'm just begging you to let me get some sleep
I've lied awake for far too long
I get so sick and tired of witnessing the dawn
As summer hangs on the horizon
Desire jumps the fence and hightails to the sea
A subtle tale turns into nightmares
Without the sentence structure
Nothing functions, no one has a clue
If it's me or if it's you
Was it me or was it you?
I'm not asking you to leave
I'm just begging you to let me get some sleep
I've lied awake for far too long
I get so sick and tired of witnessing the dawn
As winter strangles at the shoreline
Division locks the door and confiscates the key
All freezerburn and Arctic research
The time has passed for parting glances,
There's no romance, there's no sign
Of the things that used to be
And all those things you promised me
I'm not asking you to leave
I'm just begging you to let me get some sleep
I've lied awake for far too long
I get so sick and tired of witnessing the dawn
From nervous hands to nervous nightmares
I often wake and find...
We're not alone, just lonely all of the time
We're not alone, just lonely all of the time
We're not alone, just lonely all of the time
We're not alone, just lonely all of the time
I'm not asking you to leave
I'm just begging you to let me get some sleep
I've lied awake for far too long
I get so sick and tired of witnessing the dawn
I'm not asking you to leave
(I'm not asking you to leave)
I'm not asking you to leave
(I'm not asking you to leave)
I'm not asking you to leave
(I'm not asking you to leave)
I'm just begging you to let me get some sleep.
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17. |
Broken Heart (Acoustic)
03:16
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20. |
It Had To Be You (Live)
04:13
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21. |
Broken Heart (Live)
03:49
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22. |
Last Night (Live)
04:06
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25. |
Last Night (Live Demo)
03:10
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26. |
Antonia (Live Demo)
02:43
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